It's All About Jesus...

Well...here I am...12 months since I started a blog.

I thought I'd celebrate by telling you all why I am the way I am. And this will be where I might lose readers or keep them. So be it! This post has been a long time coming...in fact its been 12 months and 37 years in the making!

Because its ALL about Jesus. It is Jesus who has redeemed me, Jesus who has paid the very dear price for me, Jesus who now lifts me up, promises me only good things and who now encourages me to tell you all about Him. It is also Jesus who Mark is now with.

Look. It's not been an easy road. Far from it. NO ONE would EVER wish this situation on themselves. I never dreamed of being a widow at the rather youngish age of 36. I TOTALLY believed that Mark and I were going to be married for a long, long time.

Dreams...oh, I could tell you the dreams we had together...shattered in one heartbreaking moment. I can tell you too, that I've more than shook my fist at God over the past eighteen months...my biggest question..."WHY THIS WAY?"

THIS IS WHY...

It is so I can tell you all why I am this way. And guess what!?

ITS COME BACK TO JESUS!

You know...I could spout Bible verse after Bible verse here now...but I'm not going to do that. If what I've said here has affected you...well you'll either go and pick up a bible for yourself to see what the heck it is that Jesus is all about. Or you will leave me a message here to ask me personally how you can find Jesus...

Because, seriously, if you don't know Jesus, you will struggle in life, you will find hardships unbearable, you will worship and idolise the wrong things. There IS more to life...and that MORE is JESUS! And if you don't know Jesus, you will be on the path to hell...and whats more...WE won't see each other again. I would dearly love to see ALL of my friends and family again. PLEASE, FIND Jesus! This blog might be the start for you...MY prayer is that it is.

I live, love and glorify Jesus. Nothing else matters...

A very busy week this week, one that has been touched by tragedy...

Last weekend, I spent riding the Duke to Armidale. As part of my trip there, I had been challenged on a forum to take a photo of the bike in front of a local landmark which is big! I chose the big golden guitar at Tamworth.

Actually, come to think of it, I think I became the tourist attraction at the golden guitar as when I was saddling up to leave, a group of people had gathered to watch! So, you can believe me when I say that I was extremely careful and cautious as I was going as I didn't want to do anything stupid like fall over or leave my stand down!

As there was a function on at the school for my son's boarding house, I made the effort to get there. Thankfully the weather was great and so I had a terrific ride up the hill! Once there, I was to meet another parent who had lost her husband last year to a heart attack. Her son is in the same dorm room as mine and it seems that they've hit it off.

One thing about going to boarding school functions is the awkwardness of being a single parent and especially a single female parent. Even the married women tend to hang around with their own husbands and so the couples tend to stick together. So, it's times like these that you definitely don't want to have any name tag and all you really want to do is be somewhere else!

However, I think that really, all my son wants is for me to be there and that being the case, I will do my best to do so!

On Tuesday, 26th of February, the town was rocked by the news of yet another aircraft tragedy in the district. This time, unbelievably, two aircraft were involved. One pilot managed to miraculously survive the impact with the ground and got away from his aircraft which had caught on fire. The second pilot unfortunately did not survive his crash.

It seems inconceivable that seemingly so soon after Mark's accident, here we are facing another one. It is more inconceivable that this one involves not only our bosses plane but his brother in law is the pilot who has survived. Once again, our boss is going through investigation from ATSB and insurance people. We haven't even had Mark's accident finalised yet. It is hard to say at this stage if this will make it all harder or easier.

On Thursday, I travelled to Melbourne. This was a trip planned months ago, way back in December last year. I would not hesitate to say that it was part of God's plan to have me away from home at this time. As the trip plans had fallen so easily in place when I had made them a couple of months ago, it can only have been His influence. I seriously don't know how I would have coped being at home this weekend, as there is another memorial service being held out at the same hangar that Mark's was held in. Either way, I don't think I would have gone to that service this weekend.

I know that this tragedy has affected me, as on the flight down, I spent quite some time quietly weeping. There was no point holding it back, it actually felt like a great relief to be able to do so.

So, I'm now in Melbourne. Today I had a great day with my girlfriend, we took her husband's M series BMW for a blat down to the Peninsula to check out their newly purchased holiday house. It was a fun day of two friends having a laugh, remembering some good times, talking about some bad and wondering why the blokes were having a look at them in the car! (We remembered that what we were driving was bright blue and stood out like a sore thumb!)

But good times and a great way to try and put the tragedy of the week behind me.